But tell me, love --
Do you remember our game?
Do you remember
How I once melted in your embrace?
How completely I surrendered to the searing pain?
How obediently I waited
As the flames of passion threatened to destroy me?
How I believed that I would suffocate
Before you let me go?

Do you remember
How I branded myself,
Playing with fire
To cauterize your wounds?

I will return
With a torch
To clear the shadows of your long, tormented night.

Just, please --
Don't burn me now.

*A mentor told me years ago that she thought I was an aqlla in another life.  Kind of a random thing to say, but I resurrect the idea here.  This title, from Quechua, is a play on numerous levels of meaning.  I'll break some of them down, should you be curious:

Aqllana/Aqllay = to select/choose -- This poem was inspired by an opportunity and the need to make a decison.

Aqlla = (lit.) chosen one

Aqlla = (historically) a bride of the sun.  The aqllacuna (pl.) were taken from their homes, having been singled out (hence "aqlla") for a life of political and spiritual service to the Inca Empire.  This decision, externally imposed, was based on physical appearance, and one could not refuse to be an aqlla.  Furthermore, as the state appropriated an aqlla's sexuality, she lived under perpetual surveillance.  Owned by the empire, she could be given as a concubine -- or sacrificed -- for the greater glory of the state and the higher interests of the people.  Stakes were high; an aqlla was not free, and "transgressions" of the flesh, as well as any sign of disrespect toward the men she was ordered serve (service), were punishable by death.

In this poem, I refer to fire not only for its simultaneously destructive and purifying effects, but also because tending to a sacred fire was one of an aqlla's sacred responsibilities.

A little pre-Columbian trivia for you  ;)

Do you look at this picture and feel your knees go weak and your heart start to race ?

kitten does because this is something she enjoys a lot, the feeling of being bound and helpless, there for His pleasure, to be used how and when He wishes and how He wishes, all these and many more feelings she loves, and that is something that is a part of her  BUT and here's the thing, if you look through the internet you will find hundreds if not thousands of pictures like this, some mlder some more extreme and that is wonderful if you remember two things,

#1 Most of the pictures printed are 'staged', they are done by professionals and under strict supervision, they are not the normal scene play bondage, they are done and posed for the purpose of the photo only

#2 The subs/slaves in them are CONSENTING and have agreed to all that is taking place, it is not against their will but with their permission and the express desire to be bound and tied for pleasure.

Bondage is not something for everyone, kitten knows it is something she loves but she also knows that there has to be a lot of trust and faith in your partner before you can really clear your mind and enjoy all the pleasures that being helpless and at the mercy of another can bring, start of small and work your way to more and more if it is something that you are interested in, the pleasures it can bring are untold and worth it.

For more pictures of great bondage please take alook here... www.dennisnajee.wordpress.com

Do you ever wish for something so bad that you can almost picture it as a reality? Do you have dreams, hopes and desires that you know will make you a happier, more ‘together’ person than you think you are at present? Do you ever close your eyes and let your mind wander to how your life could be if just a few of your dreams become reality?

Kitten does daily, she knows what she wants, what she dreams of and what she yearns for, and these dreams keep her going, she needs her dreams to focus on as at the moment she has no set direction in her life, oohh she knows what she wants and what she dreams of so in a way guess that’s a focus but as usual there are obstacles to get around before the dreams become realities and in that way then kitten has no direction in her life as the obstacles and problems keep changing.

In every walk of life there are things and people that are there to bring another one down and this life is no different, in some ways it is worse as it is a smaller social sect and unlike in the vanilla life where you might go your whole life without meeting anyone who disagrees with you, in this life, as it is a smaller community, you are bound to find a few who like to bring you down with out you even looking for them. Their opinions should not matter, the life you lead is your life not theirs but unfortunately they do affect you, no matter who you are, others have the power to destroy you if you let them, the key is to not let them and to rise above them, be the bigger person and walk away. Everyone is allowed their opinions and that is how it should be, but it is up to you if you let their opinions cloud your judgement and steer you from the life you crave.

The path to happiness is a twisting and bump one, its one that only you can travel and when you travel that path alone then all the pit stops along the way can make you feel either overwhelmed and insignificant or it can make you as think you are invincible, both things that can lead to their own troubles, there are so many things that kitten feels as she travels the path she has chosen, she feels alone at times, she feels weak and powerless as things are thrown at her, she feels sad but at times elated, damn this is a hard path she has chosen but it is one she needs to take ? Why? Because kitten needs to live, she needs to be alive and at the end of this path is her life so that is why she does it.

Kitten knows that the things she faces are to many people small and insignificant but to kitten when you add them all up they do make a whole mountain of stuff to climb and negotiate, and that is a hard thing to do on your own, but kitten is kitten and she will climb the problems and obstacles and make her way to the top, lol its what kitten does best, and once at the top she will know that everything has been worthwhile

Aujourd'hui un petit article pour vous faire connaitre le viewer special RestrainedLife/RealRestraint qui permet a un dominant de controler de facon plus strict un soumis qui se connecte a Second Life grace a ce programme.

Les questions les plus courantes que l'on m'a posé a ce sujet :

Je dois payer quelquechose ?

Non, ce programme est gratuit a ce jour et ne devrait pas etre payant a l'avenir a ma connaissance

Je dois demander le programme a Linden Lab ?

Non, ce programme est basé sur la source ouverte de Second Life mais est independant, vous pouvez au jour de cet article le telecharger ici :

WINDOWS : http://www.erestraint.com/realrestraint/
MACOS X (courtesy of Mo Noel) : http://www.erestraint.com/realrestraint
LINUX : (courtesy of Loom Kish) : http://www.loomiverse.net/RestrainedLife

Cela risque t il de ralentir ou de faire planter Second Life ?

Non, pas plus que le programme habituel...donc meme lag ^^ pas plus

Cela risque t il d'endommager mon ordinateur ?

Non, les sources de telechargement sont sures, et c'est un programme tout a fait normal sans rien de dangereux pour le PC

Linden Lab cautionne ce programme ?

A ma connaissance il s'agit de quelque chose d'independant mais qui n'est pas interdit par second life, cautionnée officiellement je ne pense pas, mais tres largement utilisé depuis plusieurs années deja sans aucun echo de la part de second life d'un desaccord quelconque. Il faut savoir que le programme de connection de Second Life (viewer Client) est en OpenSource, c'est a dire que tout le monde peut se procurer le code et l'adapter a ses besoins sans aucune contrainte, la seule qui me vient a l'esprit serait de vendre cette modification car vous n'etes pas l'auteur original du code lui-meme...a voir...

Les choses InWorld sont elles tres differentes si on utilise ce programme ?

Dans l'absolu vous ne verrez aucune difference pour utiliser second life, les menus ect... Le programme est juste la partie qui vous sert a lancer Second Life, une fois dedans tout est identique excepté les commandes speciales desormais a disposition du Dominant par l'intermediaire d'un objet scripté (pas de nouveau menu special pour ces commandes, il faut un collier ou tout autre objet communiquant avec le programme)

Est ce compliqué a installer ?

Non, relativement simple si vous savez telecharger, ouvrir un zip, et copier/coller ^^

Vous allez telecharger le programme, il arrivera sans doute avec une extension .zip (RestrainedLife.zip : dossier compressé pour gagner de la vitesse de telechargement), faites click droit dessus et choisissez "extraire".

Ouvrez le dossier et copiez le "restrainedLife.exe" dans votre dossier Second Life (pour les personnes sous Windows, cela devrait etre dans C:/Programme Files/SecondLife, desolé pour les Mac, je ne connais pas ^^)

Ensuite faites un raccourci vers votre bureau ou votre barre de demarrage, et utilisez ce raccourci pour vous connecter au lieu du lanceur que vous utilisiez avant.

Voila.... vous etes sous Real Restraint ^^

Je suis dominant, je dois aussi utiliser le programme special ?

Non, seul le soumis doit etre sous Real Restraint, le Dominant, a moins d'etre switch n'en a pas besoin. Par contre le dominant doit utiliser un objet scripté porté par le sub (comme le collier CTL ^^) pour communiquer avec le programme de son sub et avoir accés aux commandes speciales.

Quels sont les avantages particuliers de ce programme pour un dominant ?

Entre autes, et cela depends des options de l'objet scripté utilisé, vous pourrez interdire les TP, les IM, le Chat, le changement de vetements, quitter les objets ect....bref, vous ne controlez pas seulement les poses de votre soumis, mais a priori une tres grosse partie de sa vie dans second life.

Et par exemple le collier CTL vous permet d'etre averti si votre sub utilise le programme normal de Second Life a la place de Real Restraint pour echapper aux regles que vous avez etabli, pour ce tp alors qu'il n'en a pas le droit...papoter en IM alors que vous lui interdisez ect...

Les fonctions peuvent etre activées et desactivées selon vos besoins et votre gout de la contrainte.

Puis je ecouter les chat et les IM de mon sub ?

Le chat peut etre ecouté sans probleme de partout en SL lorsque vous etes connecté, mais vous n'avez pas besoin de Real Restraint pour ca. (notre collier propose cette option)

Les IM ne peuvent en aucun cas etre ecoutés, Real Restraint ou pas, il existe une legende urbaine a ce sujet, mais le code de Second Life est verouillé a ce niveau. Linden Lab considere les IM comme une partie privée et vous pouvez seulement les interdire, pas les ecouter.

Puis je savoir ou et quand mon sub se promene en mon absence ou quand je suis occupé ?

Oui, meme sans Real Restraint cela est possible, (notre collier le propose), vous recevrez une message avec l'heure et la sim dans laquelle le sub s'est rendu, et ce meme si vous n'etiez pas connecté.

Mon avis perso :

J'ai testé ce programme pendant 5 mois, en me connectant toujours avec, je n'ai noté aucun probleme de lag, de menu ou autre dans l'utilisation courante de SL

Pour ce qui est des updates, pas de souci non plus, parfois la mise a jour de RR n'est pas simultanée a Linden Lab mais cela ne change rien au quotidien, par contre vous ne recevrez pas d'avis sur l'existence d'une mise a jour, a vous de vous rendre sur le site de telechargement et de regarder la derniere version mise en ligne

Pour ce qui est des fonctions de contraintes, cela foncionne parfaitement.

Si vous interdisez le chat, votre sub ne pourra rien lire d'autre que "...." si quelqu'un ecrit et idem pour lui si il ecrit.

Si vous interdisez les IM, les personne lui ecrivant recevront un message d'alerte disant que le message ne peut etre delivré en raison de l'utilisation du programme, le sub recoit un message du meme style "Intel a cherché a vous ecrire mais vous ne pouvez lire le message" (tout ca en anglais par contre). si le sub tente d'ecrire, meme chose, message d'alerte des deux cotés et pas de message original visible.

Le seul hic je trouve est que si vous interdisez les IM...meme vous en tant que dominant ne pouvez ecrire a votre sub...ca je trouve que c'est mal fait ^^ mais bon...on peut considerer que l'interdiction de chat/im est une sorte de gag ball, et dans ce cas, le sub ne peut pas parler du tout point barre looool.

Les TP, pas de souci, c'est juste impossible d'utiliser un LM ou d'accepter un TP de quelqu'un.

Bref dans l'ensemble, tout marche tres bien, sans bug majeur ormis les bug d'imcompatibilité entre objets scriptés qui commandes RR et ne sont pas de la meme marque, il arrive que un script prenne le pas sur un autre et fasse planter un des objets, donc il faut choisir un objet qui vous donne acces a le plus de fonction possible et utiliser uniquement celui la si les autres ne sont pas compatibles.

A savoir que a mes yeux, un soumis qui accepte d'etre sous Real Restraint prend une decison tres importante, et que cela est un grand don fait a son Dominant que celui ci ne doit pas traiter a la legere.

Je pense que un Dominant ne doit pas imposer ce programme si le sub ne se sent pas tout a fait pret, surtout si c'est une personne qui ne pratique pas en RL, car cela implique une reele disparition de ces capacités personnelle d'utiliser SL comme tout le monde.

Un refus d'un sub ne veut pas dire que il n'est pas un bon sub, cela veut juste dire que en tant que dominnt vous n'avez pas terminé son education et que vous n'avez pas encore reussi a l'ammener a ce point de don de soi...alors au boulot Mesdames et Messieurs les Doms ^^

enjoy ^^

It was a match that signalled the end of various careers, especially that of Steve Menzies (349 games) for Manly and Matt Geyer’s for Melbourne. Menzies (known as ‘Beaver’) completed his NRL career on top, while Mat Geyer will remember his last game as a heart-breaking loss.

Having been the best team in the competition until the final series, Melbourne began their fall from premiership glory with a loss to New Zealand in their first finals match of the season. Having barely defeated Brisbane in the following game, the Storm beat Cronulla before advancing to the Grand Final.

Questions are now being asked as to the immediate future of the Melbourne Storm – is this the beginning of the end of Melbourne’s NRL domination, will they make the finals next year, etc? However, all of this talk of a declining Melbourne side seems a little premature at this stage. Certainly they performed well below their best during the final series, but they remain a great side, though they will loose some great players before next season. Mat Geyer, Michael Crocker and Israel Folau will all be gone from the Storm next year.

The Manly side finished the year on the same points as Melbourne (as did Cronulla), though Melbourne were the Minor Premiers on for and against. Manly were the deserved winners of the Grand Final and were by far the superior team in the finals series.

Manly prop Brent Kite took out the Clive Churchill Medal as man of the match. Matt Orford was the Dally M Player of the Year.

BELOW: Cooper Cronk Speech after loosing the Grand Final

Through out the mainstream media we have become saturated by images of womens bodies, so much so that we often fail to recognize the negative impact that these images have on society. Music Videos especially splatter nameless faces and bodies of girls also known as videohos to appeal to mass culture. You can't watch a video it seems without barely clad women nor can you express your creativity outside this form. So this is my appeal to unplug! Unplug your MTV, Unplug your BET, or better yet contact your favorite artist and demand better standards and encourage creativity outsides the confines of sexism, misogyny, hypersexualization, domination, typecasting to name a few.

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We're in the kitchen. God knows what I've done,
But judging by the look upon his face
The next few minutes won't be too much fun.
I don't know if it's falling out of grace,
His giant anger blotting out the sun,
Or panic over what will soon take place,
But everything that can begins to run:
Piss down my legs, tears from my eyes, thoughts race

Around my head, but can't find an escape
Or couldn't then, or there: though in those years
A way of winning did, perhaps, take shape
In my imagination, in that dream
Of being bound & whipped: which stopped my tears
And turned my piss, amazingly, to cream.

Synopsis; EARTHLINGS is a feature length documentary about humanity's absolute dependence on animals (for pets, food, clothing, entertainment, and scientific research) but also illustrates our complete disrespect for these so-called "non-human providers." The film is narrated by Academy Award nominee Joaquin Phoenix (GLADIATOR) and features music by the critically acclaimed platinum artist Moby

Step 1 - Watch the trailer 

Step 2 - Watch director Shaun Monson address the viewers

Director of film discusses the challenges of making the film. Warning, some disturbing images intercut but his commentary maybe helpful for you.

WARNING: Strong viewer discretion is advised.

Step 3 - Watch the opening sequence

Step 4 - Go to Earthlings to watch the whole 95 min film online and / or order your copy. Share the film with others

Step 5 - Make a change

Ps view an interesting online conversation about this film here

so i am rather biased :) So as film dyrector states himself:

Alican Serbest:
I didn't study cinema but educated myself and gathered a team of my friends, educated them as well :) Then shot short movies for 8 years. This was the latest of them. We are trying to get into the professional area :)

synopsis:

It is year 2092 and vegetation is almost completely perished all over the world.
A police team has just followed a suspect to a roof.
There, they will learn a bitter truth that will affect all human race.

so no biggy, but still for me = cool to see turkish movie.

good whaching THE LINK

Late one evening, on the phone, I hear your voice.

In the background, I hear your doorbell. I tell you to go answer it.

I hear him ask for you and tell you he was sent by me.

You race to the phone, full of inquiry. I tell you to place the phone on the counter and obey. No talking.

With a half ear tuned t you, I hear him tell you to kneel, to open your mouth.

I hear a slap.

Then: low moans murmured directions, gagging sounds.

Finally, I hear the grunt. You know the one, you make it when you are secretly jacking off to my photos.

I hear his voice fade, the door slam.

Soon, you come on the line, gasping, gently weeping.

You wanted my attention.

Are you pleased?

Kitten is a great reader, she reads blogs, stories and basically anything she can and in her quest of more reading material she came across some groups which offered new stories and advice about the life that she leads, being kitten she started to read them and as she was reading she could feel herself getting crosser and crosser, and at the end of reading one of the post she was furious.

What was in the post ? Nothing much really just one persons opinion but what she was referring to was something that had happened between herself and kitten and she assumed that she had the right to demean and ridicule what was said to make herself look good and all knowing. It amazes kitten that she can appear to be so sweet and serene and act ( and it is an act) the innocent when all the while she is like a viper waiting to strike. This has done nothing but prove to kitten that her friendship was indeed one sided and that kitten is better off without it, too many times kitten has held out her hand only to have it bitten, well no more, kitten is not letting anyone else have a part of her, she has her few close friends and they know that kitten will always be there for them as they are for her but kitten is done with trying to be nice to ones who want to stab her in the back, they can go to hell.

It’s funny really, the internet is a powerful thing and while some use it for good it seems too many use it for causing trouble, and to be honest kitten is fed up with those who have cyber courage, yet when given the opportunity to actually speak to kitten and say what is on their mind they go all shy and coy and pretend they have no problem with her, its all kittens fault,, one bit of advice to all who read this ...... stop playing games and grow up... act like the mature person you are meant to be and stop with the bloody posts and innuendos,, be a real person and say it to kittens face and not scurry off and post all over the place, or are you scared that kitten can see right through you and your games ?

Sorry rant over but had to say it

It’s not the kinky stuff, or what we do,
But what we don’t, and all the gaps between:
Those glimpses of the rest and best of you,
More than a plastic goddess, or a queen:
Both more & less, as I am less & more
Than that strange love we come together for.

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