I feel a little lost without him beside me now, knowing that I won't see him for weeks or months.  The distance between us, and our clashing schedules, are the only two things that prevented our weekend from being perfect.

I described him in the last post as a friend who has the potential to be much more than that.  Things are the same now - there's still potential, but I don't think it will be realised anytime soon.  We talked, a lot, about the feelings we have for each other.  It was wonderful to hear my own thoughts being spoken from his lips - times we've shared and memories we have that mean a lot to us both. 

A friend of mine told me years ago that he believed everything in life came down to timing.  I agree.  If The Sage and I were in another place, at another time, this would be the start of a relationship.  But we're here, and it's simply the continuation of an exceptional friendship.  Neither of us can know if it will ever develop beyond that, and we've both accepted it for what it is.

There have been a few amazing men in my life over the last few years, and quite a few similar situations.  I think it's important not to dwell on the 'could haves' - relationships that never had the chance to develop due to the constraints of time or distance.  Instead, I embrace the fact that there isn't just One.  There are Many.

the one (live version) - vanessa carlton feat. stevie nicks

This video found on You Tube was too hard to watch and to true to life not to. I have for a long time thought this man was following a plan to incite the masses to get them to work against their own best interests and that of their friends and neighbors. I never thought this could happen again but lo and behold it is. We saw it early with the masses and his empty rhetoric, then with his silly emblem and now with the children singing and his own TV show not to mention his face plastered anywhere there is room.

 God help us and Save America this is Hitler reborn!

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he said, i'm sorry for the things that happened. you must have thought i took advantage of you.
she said, i let you took advantage of me. i don't think i'm in the position to blame anyone.

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errr...stupid girl. 

listening to: the one - vanessa carlton

Shinichi Osawa, previamente conhecido como Mondo Grosso, lançou The One em 2007. The One é o primeiro álbum electro-house de Osawa e é simplesmente fantástico! Apesar de ser um álbum maioritariamente electrónico, as vertentes músicais anteriores de Osawa continuam presentes neste espetacular álbum, daí que todas as outras músicas são de escuta obrigatória.

Okay... tudo bem, Shinishi Osawa lançou um álbum em 2007. Não é uma notícia um pouco, uh... fora de horas?

Sim!. Mas a grande novidade é que Van She Tech remisturou o colosso "Maximum Joy" e transformou-o num épico electrónico ainda maior!

Palavras para quê? Fiquem com Shinichi Osawa, Van She Tech e este grande remix.

Shinichi Osawa - Maximum Joy (Van She Tech Remix)

PS: Como não consegui meter o reprodutor de músicas do Imeem.com a funcionar no blog, optei por meter o link directo para a página onde está. Basta clicar no link acima e podem ir ouvir esta remistura explosiva :D

Shinichi Osawa Myspace

Van She Tech Myspace

I am renaming Soulmate to Rediscoveringme because he is not my Soulmate and that I know. However, he was the one that awoke my soul. Quieted the frustration in my decision to be alone. Reaffirmed my decision to not date the great men that would make amazing companions.

I believe last night I was torn, feeling that I had closed my heart to the world. As if I was guilty of the accusations that I keep a fortress around me, perhaps I do, but the walls crumble when someone makes my heart skip a beat.

So, Rediscoveringme just left. When I wrote him that I was conflicted last night, he replied with the most perfect answer of wanting to see me today, not with expectations or to tear off my clothes, but to hear my thoughts. I have only seen him four times now, yet his comment reminded me of what I felt when I first spent time with him.

What makes a date great? What is behind this connection we are all searching for?  What are the date topics and conversations that will elicit such?

I think back to the common link between the men that have given me butterflies over the years. Beyond initial attraction, it was a feeling of shared interests, seeing myself in them, imaging my desired life synergistic with theirs (more to come on this), and always, seeing through a certain exterior that they were generous and had a heart full of feelings (ie. That they are contemplative and not permanently on a high,in in a non-affected, "manly" state. As if, clicking with them would open a world of intimacy and sharing of our deepest thoughts.)

It’s not as simple as a man who makes me laugh or who is intriguing, active, or ambitious.

I think my next post should be “drawing Attainingme’s Mr. Right”, specifying what traits I believe my desired mate has . . .

Is there a common link between the people you have fallen for?

Inspired by the weather today, the next song comes to you from a Canadian by the name of Andrew Grange, otherwise known as Dru.  Seasons is a great song to sit back and just pause life.  He is also the guy behind Stay With Me, and The One.  The Debut Album, The One, was released in stores today and should be pretty successful.

Listen to Seasons, Stay With Me and The One Here

Personally, I like Seasons the best, followed by Stay With Me.

This is just creepy!

Same as the old Hitler Youth:

via LGF

Deci oiţelor, s-a dat decretul. Nenea Armani, cum statea el pe wc aşa, s-a gândit că toamna asta o să se poarte părul lung. Inspiraţia i-a venit că nu mai avea hârtie igienică (marca Armani firesc) şi s-a gândit că dacă şi-ar pune extensii de un metru jumate ar putea să ajungă cu ele chiar în punctul nevralgic şi ar fi şi mai sexxxy în patul său (marca Armani evident) alături de partenerul său care testează rezistenţa materialelor. Şi Arhimede era tot în baie atunci când a descoperit legea care-i poartă numele.

Cum i-a adus un sclav hârtia igienică, după ce şi-a făcut treaba cu ea (ah, ce idee bună să pună cristale Swarovski pe ea, ah ce exicitante sunt, uuu) s-a gândit să noteze repede această idee genială, până nu o uită, dar vai, a uitat să ceară pix. Nu-i nimic, lasă că are ceva cu care să scrie, e maro, constrastul e destul de bun. Zis şi făcut. Depeşa ajunge şi în România, chiar în mâinile mele, stilistul de serviciu (aka măturătorul care adună tendinţele de pe jos şi le aruncă în coşul de gunoi care se numeşte creierul piţipoancelor) iar de aici la voi, oiţelor. Gata, nu mai vociferaţi, ce mă interesează pe mine că părul nu poate creşte de un metru în 3 zile după ce chiar eu acum 3 luni v-am spus că se poartă scurt şi ciufulit? Uitaţi ce frumos şi natural arată extensiile pe aceste încălţate:

(măcar Alinuţa a zis că şi-a pus extensii că aşa a dorit iubitul ei (??) probabil să aibă de ce să tragă atunci când ea imită un patruped, posibil chiar una bucată oaie depilată )

Plus că, de unde să trăiască şi saloanele astea deschise la orice scară de bloc dacă nu se schimbă lookul la fiecare sezon?! Aşadar, oiţe rătăcite, înapoi în turmă, trebuie să vă lăsaţi plete că vine iarna iar la primăvară băgăm iar maşina de tuns în voi, că aşa e obiceiul, e şi igienic, mai ales dacă vă puneţi extensii dar uitaţi să mai treceţi pe la noi să le îngrijiţi. Nu uitaţi să folosiţi Revalid. E stresant să fii mereu în tendinţi şi poa' să vă cadă chiar podoaba capilară, iar noi nu am mai avea clienţi nu de-alta. Paşteţi fericite, fiecare fir de iarbă contează.

Too bad, I thought so highly of myself...

It's a long way to the ground.

Throughout my life I have always had a boyfriend or someone who I was “talking” with but they seem to never be that special someone. I am 23 years old and just got out of a pretty close relationship after realizing he was not someone I see myself spending the rest of my life with. While this was a very tough decision and difficult to overcome, I knew it was for the best since I am at the age where I need to find something serious that will last forever.

So now I’m looking for that special someone, but not just anyone. We have to know not to rush into things, not to marry someone just because we want to be married, and not just settle for just anything because we feel that’s all we are going to get. As ACHMI and research has taught me, we need to plan for the long-run of marriage rather than plan for a wedding. Today, it’s so common for people just to slide into a relationship because their friends are married or just because they need the comfort of marriage, only later to find themselves in an unhealthy relationship. We need to decide on a serious relationship that is meaningful and intended for the rest of their life. I want to find that person that I want to spend the rest of my life with, that I want to grow old with, that I know I truly feel that connection and love for, and that I will someday have kids with. I want a healthy relationship from the beginning to the end that will overcome the dominating challenge of today’s society, divorce!

Yes, sometimes people “think” they have married that special someone but soon realize later in their marriage that they truly did not know their significant other or that this is not someone they can be with for the rest of their life. Everyone wants a healthy marriage but sometimes do not act accordingly. Spend enough time together to make sure you know who this person truly is; we need to realize the qualities and attributes of that someone so that we truly know there is a lasting connection. We don't just want to get married to someone because it "feels" right or that we think we "feel" the emotional connection. Make sure to get to know this special someone on every level (physically, emotionally, mentally, etc.) so that you know who they really are.Take your time before rushing into marriage, take a premarital class to ensure that you’re ready for the serious step, and make sure you’re marrying your special someone.

Alexa Calligas

Alabama Community Healthy Marriage Initiative, Graduate Research Assistant

Mommy: The One is the male person you will find and love and marry and spend the rest of your life with. When you find The One, your life will take on new glorious meaning. The kindest and most gentle light will flicker through your thoughts and your body. You will be okay when you find this man. Secure, at peace, safe. You will have someone who supports you and loves you always. The One will love you so much that you will love yourself completely. The One is destiny, the mate for your mind and soul, The One with whom you will thrive despite any kind of adversity. The One is out there. You will find Him.

Adele: Where do I look?

Mommy: He will probably just come to you. That's how destiny works.

Adele: What if I want to look for him?

Mommy: Why would you want to look for him? Don't be desperate. That's really unappealing.

Adele: But if he's really going to make my life so great, shouldn't I try to find him?

Mommy: No. That's a balance you have to find, Adele. You have to keep from seeming desperate and you have to keep your antennae active in case he comes along.

Adele: So it's like being a bug?

Mommy: No, no. I mean you just have to sort of keep your attention divided--delve into whatever you're doing, pursue your interests and dreams, but always be on the lookout for The One.

Adele: That sounds difficult.

Mommy: It is, Petunia. It really is. It's part of the burden of being a woman. We have to pursue our own goals and wait for The One at the same time. And for god's sake, don't let anyone know you're waiting. You have to really pretend.

Adele: I'm not old enough for Pretend yet.

Mommy: Actually, though, if you really believe in The One, then you shouldn't pursue your own goals that hard. You could be happy with under-employment, go at your education half-assed, give in to how hard it can be for a woman to be truly independent and solvent. You could just sort of go through the independence-motions in a relaxed way. You could just sort of wait. But don't make it obvious that you're waiting. Men hate that.

Adele: How did you manage all this?

Mommy: I started taking Prozac when I was 16, and from there I went into therapy. I'm still in therapy.

Adele: Why? Isn't Daddy The One for you?

Mommy: Of course he is, Petunia. But I'm still recovering from pretending so hard for such a long time. So is my own mother, and she's nearly 70! And going through the motions half-assed can really make you feel bad about yourself. (It's a good thing your father is here to cheer me up!) Just remember that not every woman has a staff to help them with all of this, like on The Love Boat. All those passengers had Julie, Doc, Gopher, Isaac--even Captain Stubing. Even little Vicki. They were always putting people together and everyone was always talking about The One and Soul Mates and all that, and whenever anyone kissed on the deck there was this music, this wonderful music, and the moonlight in the background, the big vast ocean...

Adele: I thought that show was really stupid.

Mommy: It is, honey! Oh, Petunia, it's one of the stupidest shows ever made, besides every other show I watched growing up, like Fantasy Island or The Dukes of Hazard. And don't let anyone tell you that High School Musical is harmless. You're not watching that. And you're not going to be any princess, either.

Adele: But I want to wear a crown!

Mommy: You can wear a crown when you pay your own bills. Not in my house.

Adele: What if something happens to Daddy?

Mommy: Nothing's going to happen to Daddy.

Adele: What if something does?

Mommy: I might could find another One, somebody you and your brother would like. There's millions of them out there.

Adele: So The One could be anybody?

Mommy: Exactly, Petunia! Yes! It could be anyone at all! You just have to be open to it.

Adele: What if someone asks me out and I don't want to go?

Mommy: Then you don't go. Jeez, it's not as if I'm asking you to do things you don't want to do.

Adele: God, I'm confused.

Mommy: I understand your confusion, Adele. I really do.

He replied: "Watch out that you are not deceived. For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am he,' and, 'The time is near.' Do not follow them. (Verse 8.)

According to psychologists, heightened states of illusion, such as belief that you are the Messiah can come from a range of different places; stress, experiences of insomnia or drugs. But apparently a tenth of the population of Britain think they are someone very important or chosen, or have special powers and receive messages. At one end of the spectrum, there are people who believe themselves to be uniquely talented, and at the other end are those who believe themselves to be members of the Royal Family or key religious figures.

This could serve as a good reminder for us all to take care who we 'worship'. Be it a rock-star, footballer or philosopher; as well as to warn us against egoism and self-centered pride.

I have compiled a list of some people who have claimed to be some form of Messiah.

• Father Divine.

George Baker, also known as Father Divine, was an African American 'spiritual leader' from 1907 until he died. His full self-given name was Reverend Major Jealous Divine, and he was also known as The Messenger.

He founded a movement called International Peace Mission, Father Divine claimed to be God. This fraudster was probably one of the first modern cult leaders. However, Father Divine made numerous contributions toward his followers’ economic independence and racial equality.

• Jim Jones

This man claimed that he was the reincarnation of Jesus. As well as Buddha, Lenin, and Father Divine and more. He performed supposed miracle healings in order to attract new converts.

Members of Jones’ church called him “Father” (I've seen that somewhere before) and believed their movement was the solution to the problems of society (aren't they all).

He was the American founder of the Peoples Temple, which became synonymous with group suicide after the November 18, 1978 death of over 900 people from cyanide poisoning in their isolated agricultural community called Jonestown.

• Baha’u'llah

He claimed to be the promised one of all religions, and founded the Baha’Ì Faith. Baha’u'llah declared that he was the “Promised One” of all religions, fulfilling the messianic prophecies found in world religions. He stated that his claims to being several messiahs converging one person were the symbolic, rather than literal, fulfilment of the messianic and eschatological prophecies found in the literature of the major religions.

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• Sun Myung Moon

Sun Myung Moon was the founder of the Unification Church often referred to as The Moonies. Claims he is the Second Coming of Christ, the “Saviour”, “returning Lord”, and “True Parent”. He preaches that all people should become perfected like Jesus and like himself, and that as such he “appears in the world as the substantial body of God Himself”. He is well-known for holding Blessing ceremonies, which are often called “mass weddings”.

• David Icke

In an interview on the Terry Wogan show in 1991, he announced that he was "the son of God," and that Britain would be devastated by tidal waves and earthquakes. His statements were met with laughter and ridicule

from the studio audience, to which Wogan famously replied; 'They're laughing at you, not with you'. You can watch the clip here.

After being widely ridiculed, he disappeared from public view. He has written that, for several years, he was unable to walk down the street without people pointing and laughing, and that this experience helped him find the courage to develop his controversial ideas, because he was no longer afraid of what people thought of him.

In January 2003, he travelled to Brazil, and later talked about having used Ayahuasca: "[It] is a plant – a rain forest plant – which they turn in to what they call a turn and Shaman in South America have been using it for centuries at least to take people into other realms of reality… I took it twice and it was an experience – particularly on the 2nd night – that completely transformed my view of life. What it did was take my intellectual understanding that the world is an illusion into the realms of knowing it’s an illusion and there’s a difference between intellectually understanding it’s an illusion and this level of knowing it because you’ve experienced it.

• The Pope

The Pope is the Bishop of Rome, the leader of the Roman Catholic Church and head of state of Vatican City.

In Catholic theology, he has something called papal infallibility, which is the dogma that, by action of the Holy Spirit, the Pope is preserved from even the possibility of error when he solemnly declares to the Church a dogmatic teaching on faith or morals as being contained in divine revelation, or at least being intimately connected to divine revelation. It is also taught that the Holy Spirit works in the body of the Church to ensure that dogmatic teachings proclaimed to be infallible will be received by all Catholics.

So potentially he could cause a lot of damage.

Mark 12:38-40 "Watch out for the teachers of the law. They like to walk around in flowing robes and be greeted in the marketplaces, and have the most important seats in the synagogues and the places of honor at banquets. They devour widows' houses and for a show make lengthy prayers. Such men will be punished most severely."

P.S. I'm going to do another post on The Pope a bit later.

I had some criterias for this list:

• there had to be three and only three films in the series. 
• I had to had seen them all.

NR 3: The Jurassic Park trilogyThe Jurassic park trilogy is third on my top 3 list. So what are they about? Scientists have developed a way to bring dinosaurs to life using DNA taken from dinosaurs blood. Blood that has been preserved inside insects that got trapped in amber.The first film, Jurassic Park came out in 1993. Here John Hammond has built a dinosaur park on a remote island. Hammond puts together a selected audience to view the park, and help him decide if the park is safe or not safe for the public. But things don´t go as planned, as the security system collapses. Setting the dinosaurs free.

Here is the trailer for Jurassic Park:

In 1997 it was time to go back into the Jurassic world. And The Lost World: Jurassic Park, the second film in the trilogy came out in cinemas. This time the plot is slitely different. A rich family on a yacht cruise stumbles over a second island (also known as Site B) with dinosaurs. Site B is where is dinosaurs were being bred for Jurassic Park. But after the failure of Jurassic Park the Site B was left alone, and the dinosaurs were left to themselves. A team is sent to monitor the the dinosaurs lifestyle, before InGen (the company that owns the island) goes to the island to capture the dinosaurs, to bring them back to the US as attractions.

Here is the trailer to The Lost World: Jurassic Park: 

The third and last film in the series Jurassic Park 3, came out in 2001. This time round the plot is a rescue mission. 14-year old Eric crashes on the Site B island, and his parents trick Dr. Alan Grant (surviver from the first film) to help them find him. But what the parents didn´t know was that there are two dino islands. And that Dr. Grant was on Site A, not Site B witch they land on to find their son.

Here is the trailer for Jurassic Park 3:

Why the Jurassic Park trilogy?

So we are now down to the final spot, number one. It is very close between the top 2, but the number one trilogy has the something extra.

NR 1: The Matrix trilogy

"What is The Matrix? Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself." A quote from the film. The year is 1999, and one day Thomas Anderson´s PC gets hacked. He is told to follow the white rabbit. This leads his to Morpheus and Trinity, and they show him what the matrix is. Mr. Anderson gets the choice between a blue pill, and a red pill. The blue pill.......   Sorry I cant a good summary of the story because of two reasons. One, the trilogy deserves a much better summary than I can write. Two, the story is so good and complicated, that if I start a summary I wont finish. 

So here comes a very very small summary of the Matrix plot: Machines have taken control over the world. In an attempt stop the machines. We humans have taken away the machines life/power course, the sun. But we underestimated the machines. They found a way to survive, by making humans into batteries (they bred humans and turn body heat into power). But their system is flawed, we don´t live long in captivity, we need the Matrix. Mr. Anderson also known as Neo, is supposed to be our savier. I you still don´t understand what the Matrix is, watch the trilogy. Because no one can be told what the Matrix is, You have to see it for yourself. 

Here is the trailer for The Matrix:

The first film came out in 1999, the second in the trilogy, The Matrix Reloaded came out in 2003. This time round the machines are building an army to kill the last humans living outside the Matrix, in the last human city Zion. Neo has many hard choices to make in this film, choices between love and the survival of the free human race. Agent Smith (an agent from the Matrix) is now fully after Neo. 

Here is the trailer for The Matrix Reloaded:

The Matrix Revolutions, the last film in the best trilogy ever made also came out in 2003. Now the final battle is near, will the free human race survive? Will Neo win against agent Smith? 

Here is the trailer for The Matrix Revolutions:

Why The Matrix trilogy?

Where do I start, well I have got to give credit to the Wachowski brothers. They are the directors, writers and producers. The Matrix is their idea, their imagination gone wild. The Matrix is not just a sc-fi action thriller, but it has so many layers. Each time you watch it, you see a new layer. The Matrix film have got alot of attention because of t it´s ground breaking effects. But for me personally it´s the story that is the best part. The trilogy has it all, action, suspense, great twist, great actors, great effects but most of all a fantastic story. Like the Jason Bourne trilogy, you feel for the characters, you want Neo to win, but at the same time don´t want the films to finish.  

The Matrix trilogy is my favorite trilogy. 

Some of you are might be wundering why these trilogies are not on the list: Lord of the Rings, Star Wars, Indiana Jones and The Godfather. Well the list is of my personal favorites. Lord of the Rings is a very good trilogy, but not one of my personal favorites. I haven´t seen all the Star Wars films so I can´t list them, the reason I haven´t seen them all is because I didn´t really like the ones I have seen. I have only seen two Indiana Jones film so I can´t list them, plus there are now four Indiana Jones films. So its no longer a trilogy. As for the Godfather trilogy, I haven´t seen any of them. I Yes I know i should have, as I do have the trilogy box on DVD. 

Well thats my list. What are your favorite trilogies?

It seems crazy to write to someone whom I don't even know yet. It IS crazy. But I just desperately need someone to hear me out. I know I've decided to stop it. But it's just so hard to not think of him. Man and I am writing this to my future husband. I just want to know what he's doing right now (actually I do. he must be sleeping already.)

I've decided that I will not be bogged down by my liking for him. I need to take him out of the picture. If I continue to let this go on, it will only continue to hurt me. And I really do realize the possible consequences of letting my liking affect something that's way bigger and more important that God has already put in our way.

God, is it gonna break apart? If my actions have contributed in anyway to it, please forgive me God. Please pull it back together.

You, when will I know who you are? When I will meet you? What's your personality like? I wanna know you. Sigh. God, when will it be? Help me to trust You for him, Lord.

1) To put an end to this recurring pattern in my life.

2) To let God do His work in me regarding this issue.

3) To learn to trust Him for my future husband.

4) To dwell in God and to learn to love Him.